Time for a Plan

I was up and at the gym at 5:45 this morning. That one didn’t even hurt as much as I thought it would. I need to remember to eat more before I go and do an intense cardio session. I nearly threw up on the stair mill. 

In other news, it’s hot in Ontario and it’s making me miss home and the pool. Any Canadian tumblrs wanna invite me over for a dip? I’ll bring freeze pops!

I just thought about the fact that I’ve not been the gym in a month. An entire month. Holy crap, I didn’t even think oh hey I’m gonna go to the gym today. It just kinda slipped my mind. It’s been warm and sunny here so I find so much to do during the day. I started a new job working at a steakhouse which I honestly really like. So, when I would usually go to the gym (afterwork) I don’t because I’m sore (thanks old lady feet). More than that I haven’t been going because it was time to cut weight and my body said no thanks. I’ve been having serious pain in my knees and feet and it just won’t quit. Running and cardio are out of the question. That’s kind of discouraging and my gym doesn’t have a pool so I’m not sure what to do to cut weight. So instead, I’m going to restart live fit and bulk up. I really like bulking and didn’t achieve the muscle mass I was going for when I started livefit due to not enough calories. So I made it through phase one and two but not three. Let’s restart this with the goal to lift heavy heavy heavy and get some real muscle. YEAH! Right after my cottage weekend. 

Someone needs to kick me square and get me back to the gym. Also, maybe wrestle me  to the ground and pinch me for even THINKING about eating unhealthy foods. The last 2 weeks have been pure madness! WHERE ARE YOU JEBUS? 

Let me start of by saying I am a Christian. I was raised in a very conservative Anabaptist church. I studied and got my degree in Sociology. As a rule Anabaptists are accepting people. We take Matthew 7:1 pretty seriously “Do not judge, or you too will be judged”. I studied  how people relate to one another and conflicts as my major. Now, having said that here is my inner conflict: gay marriage, what do I really think? 

 My critical thought says that all love is of God. My religious mind says that it may be against what the Bible says. We are made in his image, we are fearfully and wonderfully made. Yet, all people are capable of sin and straying from God’s plan for us. The Bible is the word of God, written by man’s hand. That word clearly states in Leviticus 18:21 “Thou shalt not lie with mankind, as with womankind: it is abomination”. How can I reconcile the biblical teaching against what I believe to be God’s creation? I’ve prayed about it and the only thing I can come to is that it isn’t my place to judge. I can love someone no matter what their sexual orientation, and it isn’t for me to say anything about it. Simply because I am not attracted to the same sex doesn’t necessarily mean it is wrong for others to be. The argument that sex is only for procreation seems a bit narrow. If it were, humans would only have sex during times of fertility, without emotional pair bonding. I do believe men and women were anatomically designed for heterosexual sex, but that doesn’t mean to me that homosexual sex is unnatural, just different. I know I am talking in circles, this is just troubling me. It seems this entire debate about marriage is just another way to breed anger and resentment. Why is it easier to tear someone down or condemn them, rather than build them up and love them? 

I can punish my mucles by lifting heavy weights and running like my life depended on it but standing for 3 hours makes me hurt and wish for death? I don’t get it. My day has been shot because of body aches, mainly in my feet, knees and hips. What a downer, I think it was from work. I recently quit my cushy office job and started working in a restaurant again.

“a calorie is a calorie” except when it isn’t. I heard some kids at work tell hide buddy it doesn’t matter what you eat, the body absorbs it the same. I felt my skin crawl.